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A Hero takes the Stage to Boldly and Bluntly Describe Real-Life with Epilepsy


Megan Davis is one of our heroes.  She speaks boldly and honestly about the challenges of being a person with epilepsy — a woman, wife, mother, daughter and friend. She speaks loudly by blogging about her day-to-day reality at  She uses her gift of writing and channels her frustration to promote awareness and help others with epilepsy know they are not alone. She also recognizes the strength of those who love someone with epilepsy. 

So it was on June 3, 2017, at the Lead OC Gala: Paint the Town Purple to End Epilepsy in Newport Beach, California.

Megan Davis took the stage with utmost grace. 

She directed an apology to her parents in front of the 400+ elegantly dressed guests at the Gala. She expressed an apology for what was to come — a 4-letter cuss word that begins with the letter ‘f’.  And it came. Not just once. Not just twice. She cursed epilepsy with that 4-letter word three times in a letter she read aloud penned to her husband.

Below is Megan’s letter to her husband, Brian, which was read aloud at the Gala. You should also know that the Gala was an event spearheaded by Megan and Brian and Brian’s role with Lead OC.

Read Megan’s letter to her husband below and you’ll appreciate better why she thinks epilepsy is a reason to use foul language.

Read as Megan invites us into the triangle that is her relationship with her husband and epilepsy.

Thank you, Megan, for being an example and inspiration to others.  


Megan in her own words

“Go back to that place…” he whispered through the phone.

“When we were talking the other day and you said — ‘f**k them, f**k this, f**k Epilepsy; I’m going to figure out a way to make a difference and make myself happy … and I saw the woman I’ve always known. The one with fire and determination and a badass attitude. You can be that again.”

(I laughed)

Then he said — “You know that I’m right…”

Yep, I know. I know he is. He always is. My sanity, my “life coach” on days I can’t see straight for being so depressed, my normalcy, my savior along this journey.

And so this post is a letter to him.  To all the unsung heroes and caretakers that bear the brunt of a disease they “acquired” by association and through love.

When I think of what this disease put us through and our roles in life as a result, I picture the countless times you’ve gently carried me in your arms down our hall and laid my tired body on the bed. Curled around me and wiped my tears as I blubber incoherent apologies for doing this to you, to our family, again. Or the moments you lay facing me, showing me how to breathe while I attempt to calm myself and stop repeating “I’m scared, I’m scared.” And last, I always think of what your face must look like when it sees mine contorted, heaving, seeing the foam, hearing the hissing and watching my limbs twist in some sort of gory fashion. Or the absent look as my eyes twitch and my arms clench in smaller seizures. That’s what I think of — all the ugly you turn tender. All the gruesome you make beautiful. All the crushing fear you make bearable. You give so much in constantly taking what I can’t carry.

And you do it all without complaint, recognition, and in my eyes, reward. You bury your wants and needs beneath mine, catering to my exhaustion, frustration and pessimism.

You’re constantly saying yes to my health, my unpredictable. Our unpredictable. This part of life neither of us ever thought we’d navigate.

There are days I can’t fathom how you don’t put your fist through a wall or simply crumble to the floor and give up, give in. I know you feel the pressure in fulfilling the stereotypical family role; the provider, the husband, the father and now an on-call caretaker. The weight’s too much, the shoulders too heavy. Although you don’t share it, I see it. I know, but others don’t and I think they should understand the depth of your responsibility, and mostly, sacrifice, because I am humbled by the lengths you go to for my health and happiness in disregard for your own.

Remember the other night at the charity event, when a mother came on stage with her son who battles a rare disease and attempted to capture their world, their struggle, in a matter of minutes? As she spoke, I cried for the little boy, but mostly for the mother and her finite ability to express the infinite pain she must endure … Because I can imagine the burden she carries watching her son suffer, the heaviness on her heart and the fear of the unknown that suffocates her optimism for the son she treasures. I know those wounds because I know you and your love for me … your willingness to stay up until 3 with me and wake up at 5 for work. Your willingness to come home from a long day and play both Daddy and Mommy while cooking dinner … Most of all though, I cried for her because she can’t always cry for herself. She’s too busy gluing all their broken pieces back together. She’s my you.

One day, when we aren’t sick anymore, I promise to be the woman you married. The fire-y, confident, powerhouse you watched walk towards you that day. I will be your equal, the source of your laughter and the pillar you deserve once again. But until then, know I love you beyond measure. Beyond words, beyond what I imagined possible when we sat across a dimly lit table in that tiny restaurant on our first date … shyly smiling at each other.

I promise all these broken pieces will become our beautiful mosaic. The one we created together, but more importantly, the one you so painstakingly hold together just for me. For the woman you once knew and the one I will be again.

Never in my life have I been so grateful and so fortunate as in this moment with you.

I love you.

Your M,


Photos from Megan Davis’ blog